captkevman

As the old saying goes, “April showers bring May flowers.” If that’s true in the figurative sense, I’m anxious to see what May turns into in regard to recent events in my life.

I started to go on and on about why, but suddenly I’m compelled to keep these thoughts private, so I deleted the words I typed. In general terms (as I’ve mentioned before), my marriage entered April in the midst of the greatest trial it has yet endured, and exited it with a renewed energy and sense of closeness that neither of us had felt since we started dating. For at least the past several years, I’ve felt burdened and overwhelmed and angry about many aspects of my life, but April 2011 has changed all of that. I feel a hope and an optimism that I wish to perpetuate for the rest of my days.

As for my business, I’ve been “planting seeds” of sorts, and I hope that May starts to bring those into fruition, as well. I’m looking forward to seeing how that goes.

I’ll keep you posted.

I have a rather unremarkable spiritual life. While I was raised as a Christian, I’m not aligned with that faith in its current incarnation. I do believe in a Higher Power of some sort, but I don’t think it’s a magical man in the sky that grants wishes if he’s showered with enough praise. I think nature has a design, and we have sort of a sixth sense that is attuned to that design and lets us know if we’re proceeding down our life’s path appropriately or not.

Having said that, I’ve been extremely frustrated with my life for the past decade or so: neither my wife nor I are the parents I’d hoped we would be, we’ve struggled financially, our house is in constant chaos, yadda yadda, etc.

That has caused a sense of discontent that has permeated my existence for the past dozen years. That is, until recently.

I’ve recently found the “Everything Is As It Should Be” filter, and it’s been working wonders on my life so far. I no longer look at my defiant daughter and wonder what I did wrong — I now see a unique girl who is communicating her needs in the only way she knows how to do so. I no longer see a hopelessly cluttered house — I now see some extra stuff we can donate or pick up a few bucks for at a yard sale. I no longer see a frustrated marriage where I barely get to spend any time with my wife — I now make a few minutes here and there to nurture and grow my relationship with the beautiful woman I fell in love with so many years ago.

As a result, I’m no longer constantly angry and frustrated — I’m now smiling and laughing again like I haven’t in years.